The Newer Year

Eight and a half hours to 2008.

2007 has been an intense mixture of events and emotions. From patching up with the Lady, to resignation from BigFirm, to her homecoming, and to a brother's engagement. But it sure had passed a little too fast for me to digest.

Come 2008, I can just pray and hope that things would only get better from here on.

So, on this hopeful note, goodbye 2007 and cheers to 2008.

The Number For Every Single Hour

June 14th isn't just another day
But for her it's one she can have her way
For the number is the hour
Come now come twenty four
This is not just a number
Not just one you write on paper

I remember back in two thousand
I felt like I was on an island
As if I was running a mile
When I was trying to make her smile

Eight years now down the road
She is still far abroad
Not that it really makes a difference
I still live by that reminiscense

So here I am, Darling
The one and only I am missing
I wish this could be more special
Rather than getting just a mail
For one day I want to celebrate with you this occasion
Not just once but every single season
There's more than two words I want to say
The first being Happy 24th Birthday
The rest is how truly madly deeply
You made my life such a memory
I just want to put that smile back on you
And tell you that, I love you.

The One Between Reality And Fantasy

You say life is a dream where we can't say what we mean
Maybe just some roadside scene that we're driving past
There's no telling where we'll be in a day or in a week
And there's no promises of peace or of happiness


Well is this why you cling to every little thing
And polverize and derrange all your senses
Maybe life is a song but you're scared to song along
Until the very ending


Oh, it's time to let go of everything we used to know
Ideas that strengthen who we've been
It's time to cut ties that won't ever free our minds
From the chains and shackles that they're in


Oh, tell me what good is saying that you're free
In a dark and storming sea
You're chained to your history, you're surely sinking fast
You say that you know that the good Lord's in control
He's gonna bless and keep your tired and oh so restless soul
But at the end of the day when every price has been paid
You're gonna rise and sit beside him on some old seat of gold
And won't you tell me why you live like you're afraid to die
You'll die like you're afraid to go


Oh, it's time to let go of everything we used to know
Ideas that strengthen who we've been
It's time to cut ties that won't ever free our minds
From chains and shackles that they're in
From the chains and shackles that they're in


Well life is a dream 'cause we're all walking in our sleep
You could see us stand in lines like we're dead upon our feet
And we build our house of cards and then we wait for it to fall
Always forget how strange it is just to be alive at all


Patrick Park - Life Is A Song

The Distance

If there's one credo that I no longer believe, it would be the possibility of a long distance relationship. Once a firm believer of the creed, I now join the relationship cynics. Welcome me into the bandwagon.

You might ask why the U-turn. My answer is simple. I've tasted, felt and smelt the agony of such a relationship. And the outcome did not co-exist with my belief.

So when you told me that you're planning to come back, I was nothing but thrilled. Thrilled that a dream I never thought I would ever live to see, is realizing. No doubt there's a lot of ambiguities and uncertainties, but that would only be the substance that is going to add some flavor into the word "life".

So, this is the selfish me saying, please, come back soon.

The One In 6 Months

Almost.

Continued slaving for BigFirm.

CNY came. One hell of a weird one.

The Lady came back.

The Crush was told the truth.

The Crush flipped me over the chair with the truth on BigFirm's intranet.

The Crush had no guts to admit shit face to face.

Farewell dinner with The Crush. Lesson learned: Don't bother with a confused woman who has no fucking idea what she wants.

Patched things up with The Lady. When she's no longer around. Lesson learned: The irony life throws at you.

Tendered resignation at BigFirm. Lesson learned: Managers are fuckers.

Boycotted in BigFirm. Lesson learned: Senior Managers can go fuck themselves.

Messed up on the last day in BigFirm. Lesson learned: Goodbye fuckers.

Back to square one, hoping to make a difference. Lesson learned: I would never be a fucker. But I don't want to be a fuckee either.

The Lady is coming home. For good.

The Cross-Over to Another Year

And so 2006 left and 2007 dropped in.

I would say that this could be the best countdown I had thus far.

Great company, good ambience. A lot of laughters. Great music.

And so... goodbye 2006.

The Flashback

Days passed.
Months went by,
Now it's time to say goodbye.

In 2006, I...

1. Had the best burger in Chili's.
2. Spent Chinese New Year with one single person.
3. Had a simple warm Valentine's after 2 years.
4. Went broke from a major paint job on my ride.
5. Patched a broken relationship up.
6. Messed up my finals.
7. Sold my life to BigFirm.
8. Broke a heart with harsh words.
9. Started binging.
10. Had a crush.
11. Overspent on my new cell.
12. Was left date-less on my birthday bash.
13. Got pissed drunk on my birthday bash.
14. Was given a cold shoulder.
15. Gave it another shot.
16. Pretty much messed up another finals.
17. Was given another cold shoulder.
18. Pushed her aside out of vengeance.
19. Lost the plot on Christmas.
20. Messed up.